i'm in a better mood today. kinda tired but a little happy. yesterday a friend turned 15 and in here that's like a big big big deal. so we had a formal dinner at her house, it was really fun. we had a sleep over at her house and we all decided we wouldn't go to school today so we "feel asleep" and we didn't go. and know im at my house hahaha...it was really fun!! i imagine school without us for one day.teachers will actually be able to teach for today...anyway im happier...im getting over beto...i think.. i still look at him and it hurts but i've stopped imagining that he would someday love me so i'm kinda getting the idea. also like he stopped talking to me after the poem i think he didn't like it or something so whatever there are too many boys in the world. and i have a lot of friends i dont need to be suffering for him. well ill write later in the day love u all! -brenda