heyy im back from the cruise!!! i know no one cares and no one reads this shit, but im gonna write anyways...it was amaziing it was the best thing ever !!! the islands were amazing and stuff...and the shopping and everything...but the cruisse woow ! i swear ill never forget...i wanna post some pictures but i dunno how..so if someone knows please let me know...thanks anyways...i had an awsome time with my friends...all the food was free yayy so i gained like 1001233453123 pounds...and i met soo many people...so many cute and awsome guys from all parts of the world...and hell yeah there was a summer love...oh my god i swear i miss him so much and i talked to him like today in the morning....he was sooo cute...his name is ben and he is from redding, california so if anyone lives there please let me know please please please!! ben is definetly not the type of guy i usually like....he was really really different...he dressed really different to the guys i always like and talked really different and liked different things..but he was the cutest guy ive ever seen and he was soo awsome...he has the most beautiful smile ever...he always stared at me and when i stared back he would just smile...ooohh i cant belive its over now...and i met so many cool people...if someone tells me how to post the pictures i will...but i cant believe its over i remember it and i feel it was like a dream...its like its not clear in my head...oh well it must be the excitement...i mean i cant believe i was talking to him today...and now we are like miles and miles and thousands of miles apart...:( im gonna start crying again fuck it...i dont know how to let go off people..and i get too involved too fast so thats a problem...anyways i know ill never see him again..but i will never forget his face in the window of his room staring at me...and his smile...and the worst part is that i know he might not even remember me because as you know im the ugliest person alive and im so forgettable...and he was so awsome im sure he liked some other girl and i was like whatever for him...but thats alright cuz i know that even if i dont want to i will forget him with time..i just dont want to because he was so unbelievable...but i know i will...so this is temporary as everything in life...fuckk...why cant things last forever!!?!? anyways im gonna go know...im way to confuzed inside...im happy because of the cruise but im sad because of him but im also excited and blah blah blah...later.. OH AND IF ANYONE LIVES IN REDDING, CALIFORNIA PLEASE PLEASE I BEG U LET ME KNOW!!