i dont know what to feel.. i feel like shit but i dont even feel like talking abuot it. its not worth it. nothing is worth it. im not worth it. im worth nothing. i cant do anything right. my prescence fukin messes up so many peoples life. i wish i was able to take my life away. i just cant. im dont work even for that.and my fukin migrane is killing me. yeah as if somebody cared...ur not supposed to care..im not worth it...if someone knows how to suicide without feeling guilty please tell me. i just went through something bigger than me. and the worst part is i cant stop crying and i dont know why. WHY!! WHY THE FUCK IM I LIKE THIS?!?! IM SO FUCKIN WEIRD I JUST DONT FIT ANYWHERE! i cant get along with someone if they get to really know me...fuck it i wanna die like KNOW ...and im too coward to kill myself..why cant i just do it!? Name: brenda Birthday: sep 26 Birthplace: monterrey nl Current Location: mty Eye Color: black Hair Color: black and purple Height: no clue Right Handed or Left Handed: both but mostly left The Shoes You Wore Today: minnie wannabes Your Weakness: feelings hurted Your Fears: live like i live right now my whole life Your Perfect Pizza: red spot's pepperoni pizza Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: die or magically change my life Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: wtf Thoughts First Waking Up: fuck..i didnt die at night.. Your Best Physical Feature: my shadow? Your Bedtime: whenever im sleepy Your Most Missed Memory: when i actually liked mself Pepsi or Coke: coke MacDonalds or Burger King: neither Single or Group Dates: i can date??!?! Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: whatever Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate Cappuccino or Coffee: depends Do you Smoke: yup Do you Swear: fucking no u assholes Do you Sing: yes but some people dont call it singing Do you Shower Daily:sometimes Have you Been in Love: yes Do you want to go to College: hopefuly Do you want to get Married: yup Do you belive in yourself: am i believable? Do you get Motion Sickness: sometimes Do you think you are Attractive: if u dont know me and have never seen me maybe Are you a Health Freak: nup Do you get along with your Parents: m...no Do you like Thunderstorms: yup Do you play an Instrument: yup In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yup but not a lot In the past month have you Smoked:yup In the past month have you been on Drugs: i dont do drugs In the past month have you gone on a Date: in the past lifetime noup In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yup In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: i dont count the oreos i eat In the past month have you eaten Sushi: probably In the past month have you been on Stage: nup In the past month have you been Dumped: nope In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: eh? In the past month have you Stolen Anything: maybe Ever been Drunk:...... Ever been called a Tease: yup Ever been Beaten up: nup Ever Shoplifted: aeh? How do you want to Die: smiling cuz im finally dying What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a grownup? no maybe a bird... What country would you most like to Visit: europe In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: deep ones. whatever color Favourite Hair Color: anything except blond ew Short or Long Hair: long Height: taller then me Weight: more than me Number of Drugs I have taken: Number of CDs I own: i dont count them Number of Piercings: 3 Number of Tattoos: 0 Number of things in my Past I Regret: actually living