so tomorrows nico's bday and i still have no present...fuck...and he just pierced his lip again he looks SOOO HOT...andd yesterday and today happened a lot of things... first yesterday i went to a xv party and eugenio was there and we talked a lot...he cut his hair..he looked so cute.. ok next thing...today i went to a gig and all the bands were local bands soo i know most of the guys that played...and one of them was gus..and h e looked so sexy with his guitar and his hair all messy and singing tbs and stuff...i couldnt take my eyes off him...even if i try i just canttt forget him...but i know its not love..its like a weird attraction...i dunno but i want it to end soo bad... and then...something baad...ok since a long time ago nico started calling me cutie...all the time.."hey cutiee.." ...soo today at the gig we were sitting on a porch and he started playing with my hand...he always makes fun of me cuz i have small small hands..and then he was gonna sing (he sings awsomee!!!) oh and he sings with GUS!! so fuck yeah i had to see that...so when we got up cuz they were next he just took me like he was uncontrolled and he kissed my cheek...i swear it was the sweetest thing in the world...i was in shock for like 5 minutes after...it was sooo soo sweet..anyways after that he asked me to take care of his cel and a paper he was carrying so he could sing...and i took his cell and the paper and it was some lyrics ssooo i had to read them..and i started reading and the meaning of them was like i loved u so much but u never did so i dont anymore...but they were so good..anyways..in the lyrics he refered to the girl..as cutie...so yeah..that made me think...why is he calling me cutie and writing lyrics about some "cutie" that he loved but she didnt love him back...am i that cutie? ...fuck it..and then when he started singing i was at the very front watching and when he got a chanc hed just come and take a drag from my ciggarette.....he looked soo good..ooo good whyyy is he like that?! what does it all mean!? ...i have to do a present...if someone knowss about something nice meaningful and CHEAP please let me knoww !!! later..