devoted dreams of you

by emotionsfade on June 8th 2005, 12:00AM

Listening to: jack in the pulpit- life goes on

Feeling: awake

2 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL! YEAHH BABYY!! ahha im so happy...school its almost over...and my dance performance is on sunday so wish me luck! iÂ´m not gonna lie to anyone anymore..im officially in love with my best friend..again..fuck..its hard to say i love him because it doesnt feel like love..but then im so jealous of the girls he talks about, and i get so nervous and happy and excited and sad and everything at the same time whenever he takes my hand..so i guess it is love huh ?...im never gonna tell him..im gonna keep it for me and u guys until whenever he says he loves me to (dreaming is free) or he gets a serious girlfriend and im forced out of his life forever.. anyways...i wrote this for him...it is the first thing i ever write about love..so it felt so weird..but then again maybe its the first time in my life i've actually felt real love..so that explains it.. It all began with a smile, Thatâ€™s all it takes to remove my tile, The brighter eyes Iâ€™ve ever seen, With the darkest side found within. Your gentle touch that I never get, Keeps me so forgotten, Every tear you shed I regret, For everything Iâ€™m not is all youâ€™ve gotten. You take me to heaven, so blue, I can barely see the floor; all I see is you, All Iâ€™ve learned in this beautiful hell, Is that your tainted heart kills me so wellâ€¦ Devoted dreams of you, Come along whenever Iâ€™m cryingâ€¦ Itâ€™s an impossible thing to do, Fall in love and not feel like dyingâ€¦ To bad Iâ€™m not cuz im gonna have face, All the blisters Iâ€™ve left behind, You make them burn again with pace, They look so bad I wish you made me blind. Your love is so sarcasticâ€¦ I get bitter and sharp, The air I breathe feels caustic So all I can afford to do is laughâ€¦

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My name's actually Kyle, but I go by Olan. Fred...I have no idea where Fred came from. Who calls me Fred? Do I seem like a Fred to you?
My friend says I seem like a Jahmonicqua. I'm not gonna go into detail.
And thanks about the poem too...it does have music, mostly guitar.

[donotfear]

i try to put myself first, it's hard. I always have believe that It's my life and i need to put myself first, but things have changed. but thanks for the comment. Your poem is lovely!

[dementeddreams]

yeah...my best friend was my cat...maybe that seems weird to you, i dunno, maybe youre not an animal person...but i got him when i was 7, and ive never loved anyone more then i loved him. and i know he loved me too, i could tell... anyway, ive moved around alot, and there were alot of times when he was the only friend i had.

[Anonymous]

then one day he just disappeared and never came back. i assume he died...but i think the worst part about it is that ill never know that for sure...you know?

but anyway...im sorry about your friends. ive never had anyone move away from me, but ive moved away from everyone plenty of times, so i know what youre feeling. im here if you ever wanna talk.

thanks for listening...

-brandi

xroxyfoxyx- Awwww that poem is cute. I love it. Hang in there :)

you are soo pretty

wow pretty and nice?? thats really hard to find.. nobody has ever offered their time to me.. thats really nice of you.. thank you!

-chloe

well thank you so much, i sometimes really do need to talk to somebody.. and i am here for you if you ever need it.

my screen name is herforgottenpast
if you have one, id love to hear from you!!

i am gonna add you, just so you know..

-chloe
(halfunderwater) im on my friends diary.

yewr pretty why do yew think yewr ugly??

if i were gay id do yew lol

danielle

[iloveslipknot]

aww :( that sucks about your iguana...i know how that feels... youre right, when you lose your best friend...its like youve lost yourself...im still not the same without my cat, and i dont know if i ever will be...i loved him SO much...

i agree completely. well, of course i do i just wrote about it.. lol.. well how are you today?

thats exciting!! i got out of school like 3 weeks ago.. now im bored!

are yew prepy??
lol....im not gay thought so dont git any ideas.....lol
danielle

my diary is gonna be deleted becasuse of my confirmation link, so i made a new one..
its
alldressedup
sorry =(