i cant take it anymore...i think my parents r gonna get divorced...it hurts like hell but sometimes i wonder if home will actually look like a home ..if theres gonna b peace in here if they do...its fucking sad to wake up and realize ur mom beats spencer chamberlain at shouting =S....and my dad looks sicker and sicker everyday...i can see the effort he does to stay awake when hes around us..its like hes waiting for something worse to happen with our family so things can go back to normal..but if something worse happens it has to b the end cuz were at the edge...goood i loved our family..now its like being together is a sacrifice for all of us..yet we dont want it to split...even if it would b better...but just the idea of being alone...more....i dunno i like it better this way i guess..even if were going down..i rather stay falling than touch the bottom...whatever..later...