Monday, 8:30 p.m.   Unwanted Affection Daddy hugs Mum in the kitchen by the refridgerator. Her arms hang limp at her sides. The sound of hands rubbing fabric The bored expression of a woman The Television playing in the background Little sister's constant chatter The girl sitting at the computer, locked into the music, that's me. That's me. In 25 years that's me. In the kitchen, arms limp at my sides. Bored with my life. Bored with the romance novels. Bored with the fat man I'm married to. I don't want that woman in the kitchen, that bored woman with limp arms to be me. Consumed by the stories of a thousand fictional people. I don't want that woman to be me. Anyway, my weekend has rocked. Saturday was Brett's party. At first I was so bored, I was one of two girls. The other 10 or so kids were guys, and they played soccer outside. But then I got into the game and realised how funny it all was. And I went into cheerleader mode and paid attention to who was scoring. After that, and after dinner, we played kareoke thing. On the PS2. It was so much fun! Oh my gosh! And then we went to Brett's show? And he has a pretty good band. He's not a bad bassist. No ska, which was a bummer, but Brett's band played punky rock stuff. Then there was a bit of radio type music (which wasn't good), and I danced to that, and I danced a lot. I danced my heart out. The second band wasn't good, the lead singer had a powerful voice, but she wasn't using it that well, and all their covers were really bad. They had one original song. And that sucked too. Oh well. "Ink" slaughtered "Closing Time" and I was so sad. Luke's band was awesome though. They had a good mix of covers and original stuff. Yay Luke's band! I was having the time of my life! Oh and there was this cute boy there? At the show, and I actually got the guts to ask him if he had a girl friend. And if he had said no, I would totally have kissed him. but he said he did and I was like, "oh, bummer. bye." Oh well, I tried, you guys! I tried! It's a start. I went home, da da da, drank a couple glasses of water (man I was thirsty), and went to bed. Sunday I went orienteering (like a hike only about a billion times more complicated), I was so tired. And I had a date with a kid in my accounting class (named Ten) at 3:30. We went and saw The Bourne Supremacy. I almost fell asleep in the theatre, and I can hardly remember what it was about. Not a horrible movie, but not a spectacular one. It just.. didn't stick with me. And then I sat and waited in the bus exchange for half an hour, watching people coming down the escalator, seeing different styles, different people with their different lives.. It was amusing in a teresa-is-alone-and-slightly-bored sort of way. Got home, talked to Caleb on the 'Net. I asked him if he wanted to hang out with me. "Sure," he said, and I wasn't sure if it was a bored sure or a nonbored sure, but I didn't want to think about it. I already think too much about stupid trivial things. Anyway, I said, "3:45?" and he agreed and that was that. I went to bed. School today was a blur. Class after class. After Interval we had an assembly. I worked on making an experimental picture frame in technology. At lunch I threw a football back and forth in a group of people. Mostly girls, which was surprising. I learned something about myself--I am absolutely useless with footballs. Hehe. Da da da, finished school, biked home. Changed out of my uniform. I wear black a lot. Anyway, I grabbed the phone and my wallet, told my mom I was going to the park, and left. I was five minutes late, but Caleb wasn't there yet. I swung as high as I could on the swingset, and then spun myself on the merry-go-round. And then he showed up after 5 minutes and I smiled at him, he was out of breath because he'd jogged the whole way. Caleb is so in shape and strong and athletic. And smart too. Is there anything the kid can't do? I'm jealous. And also very attracted... Anyway. We walked through a park, and talked and he said it would be funny if two people holding hands walked with a tree between them and ran into each other around the tree? And so we tried it. And it was pretty funny. We rode on a see-saw and it was cute that I got on, and he pushed me up from the other side of the teetertotter with his hand. And he got on. If he just sat there, I was just sitting in the air. It was funny. And the free fall feeling of a teetertotter can't be beat. We were going to go to Salvation Army but it was closed, so we went to a park closish to his house. We sat in the grass and made daisy chains. Well he was better at it than I was, he made a crown for me. We sat in the grass and cuddled, in the midst of the daisies, and he said I was a princess. And I said did that make him a prince? He said no, because we weren't married. So we decided to get married (this. always. happens.). I kissed him. I'm not sure whether or not he liked the kiss... but I liked it... *pout pout* And I wore my daisy chain crown on the bus home. then I came home. Ten called me. I watched tv. I listened to music, now I'm talking to Gwen and Caleb and having a jolly good time. but have to go. Goodbye all.