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6:41 Early Saturday Morning   Clean after Camping It was AMAZING to go somewhere warm for spring break. I have to keep telling myself that so I don't regret going. There was a lot of climbing up rocks. There was a lot of me dropping my helmet. There was a lot of getting lost and hand in hand with that, there was a lot of me getting very angry with Kate. I don't mind getting lost...I do mind driving around for hours and wasting a lot of precious precious expensive fuel. I do mind burning my clutch. the clutch was the last straw for me. I just wanted to go home. Rock climbing was good but It's not really my thing. It's an expensive hobby and while I appreciate the "it's you against the wall" mantra, I just don't think I'll ever enjoy it as much as I enjoy skiing, where it's me against the mountain. But i was glad to be invited...even if it was a relatively expensive trip. I really like Kate, except when she's giving me directions. Amy is Amy. I was pretty surprised at how very tense John and I were with each other...I think we're too similar. Sometimes I just wanted to bite his head off, and I'm absolutely certain that at times he was on the verge of killing me. Haha, so yeah. John's cool and all, but it's quite apparent that we could never be close friends. Towards the end, everything he said was just...i couldn't help but roll my eyes. So that was my spring break. Definitely an adventure...Dad was pretty furious that I took the car but he's over it now. I need to vacuum it out and give it a good hose down, though I have to say I expected it to end up a lot dirtier than it did. i missed caleb. i want to be talking to him right now. Fantasy is still alive! 3 weeks, baby. I would really like to put him in a tank with a filter instead of doing 15% water changes every other day to keep the nitrite levels down, but so far he's been really good. Did I mention that Steph might come back to work in the lab? I think that might be a good enough motivator to get me to go to work again...the lack of money obviously isn't enough. I'm tempted to find a new job that is mindless and not fulfilling but has a schedule. I don't know. I really miss working in the lab but I need to know what to do. It's so frustrating! But at least I'm caught up with school and I'm understanding physics. Huzzah.
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yeah, I saw you when I had Hiag as a username. I deleted all of its entries a few times, and made some more. I've moved the ones I've kept to this'n though. I kinda regret losing some of the ones I deleted.
I usually having a falling-out with myself here or there, and will try to erase everything about me. Delete all my friends, all my entries, trash anything with phone numbers/names. I've done it a few times.
haha, well. I'm really fucking clingy. and then I just lose all interest. It's almost like i get my fill of it, and discard it. It's disgusting. I despise myself for it. but i keep doing it.
i haven.t talked to him yet. i.m too much of a coward. i will tell him today or something though. i.m still going to move in with our other roommate to be. we are just going to get a smaller place.
yeaaa could be the case. stress sucks. i.m going to the doctors tomorrow to get some blood work and make sure my white cell count is normal and all that jazz. i can.t touch my chin to my chest which is a common symptom of menangitus which i.ve had before so... we.ll see. but i never went on my straight date with mormon josh because i have been too sickly. he leaves on the ninth so we are still planning on going out. hehe. we talk on the phone.
it.s cute. i just don.t want to get him sick before he goes on his mission. so hopefully i.ll stop having my fevers before he leaves. at least then i won.t be contageous with whatever i have.
Well you sound like a very strong person so I'm pretty sure you will survive. And about my situation I just don't like geting hurt. (who does?) Sometimes I feel like all my efforts in my relationship are thrown away when something so miniscule changes the drift of our coarse. But anyways... rock climbing wouldn't be my thing either. My arms are too weak. But it sounds like you had fun anyways :]
me too. haha. i love rock climbing, not much of a skiier though. i always get my skiis crossed and fall. i know people like john. :/ ugh, i think all these fevers are killing my brain cells. i can.t have anymore of this sickness.
oh, i admire you for being able to ski, it is so not as easy as it looks. i went to the doctors this morning. there is nothing anyone can do for me other than treat my symptoms until they figure out what the fuck is wrong. hopefully i.ll be hearing back from the doctors in the next few days with the results from my bloodwork. i might just have mono. no big deal. just fucking tired and energy-less. fevers. swollen glands. weak. achy. blah. haha.