9:02 Friday Night   Invite Me Still nothing. Breasts painful. 99% sure not pregnant. .5% sure am carrying Jesus Incarnate. .5% sure someone's sperm is so evolved it just teleported itself into womb. Waking up at 1:45 in the morning because you have to pee is not pleasant. Argh. So I had to get up, pee, wash hands, drink water, and then go back to bed. And, of course, after you get up and walk around a little, it's difficult to get back to sleep. I eventually slipped back into slumberland, only to wake up at 6. Fell asleep again until 6:30, when I lied awake listening to the sounds of the neighbor's car rumbling in the driveway. I reminisced those days, walking down the stairs while everyone else was still asleep, early in the morning, and sitting on the heater, eating a bowl of porridge, looking at the christmas tree. And driving to school while it snowed. I miss winter. Before I knew it, it was 7 and I had to get up. I did the regular morning thing, and biked to school. I went into tech class early and sat there and read Dune until class started. Then worked on wood joints some more. In chemistry we took a colour test and I only missed 5. I was so proud. Then talked about electrochemical thingies. yay. Teacher told us to forget everything we learned last year about Electrolosys, and James and I were excited because we'd already done it! woohoo! Yay for our forgetting skills! In Interval the hackey circle got started. :( The hackey circle is scary. but then i talked to Laura so everything was okay. In Art, I worked on my screen print. yay. Into lunchperiod. Student Teacher said my print was going to be awesome because of all the detail I'm putting in. yay. Lunch, eh. I don't remember anything except that I made a glass of milo. or was that interval? eitherway. i made a glass of milo today. Maths consisted of LIMITS, hurray. Yay for Limits. I understand Limits. Prefect Sam asked me what Caleb was going to do when I left. He said that Caleb would cry. I said "yeah right, caleb who hasn't cried since age like 3." Then we played with our graphics calculators. Scott invited me to his house when I was talking to him before English. Yay. In English we had chocolate cake and worked on seminars about Othello. After school, Alyssa had me tag along with her to the meeting for Zeal. It didn't get started for a while and we played with a ball. Caleb cleaned the room. Then we started. I wasn't very helpful. I biked home. I got dressed. I got online. I talked to Caleb and Taylor and got pissed at chelsea. I don't know. Maybe it's her, maybe it's me, it's probably both of us, but she is just SO EFFING WENCHY. She says I'm a bitch to her but even when I try to be nice she freaks. ARGH ITS JUST SO HARD. to deal with her. gosh. Then Dad and Mum were happy taht I was PMSing. I wish. It's just too hard to get on with Chelsea. Grah. Then Dad let me drive to Scott's. Sitting around, playing videogames, talking, being annoyed with my mum for not booking a gyno, and happily being us is really fun and I enjoyed myself a lot. yay. Then I came home and tried to be nice to HER but she didn't like my singing and blew up at me and it makes me sad. She was online for 3 hours and then got upset with me for wanting to be online for one. You know what else makes me sad? Leaving Caleb. I never expected THIS. I should go to bed because I have to get up early tomorrow. Yay sports day. woo. ----------------- 9:40 p.m. A spider crawled on my elbow today. Thursday morning I saw a bag on my way to school. I wished I had my video camera. I almost cried. It reminded me of Mandy and watching American Beauty like 5 times. The bag was dancing, in the middle of the street. It made me smile. But I felt a sting in my eyes and nose and it wasn't the rain.