10:02 Wednesday Night   It's Not the things I did as much as it's the Things I Didn't I love the Fruju commercial. "I would have gotten a Fruju," I said, "...but I like the commercial too much." They laughed. I don't think they understood. That I can't get the Fruju because I wanted to because I liked the commercial because that would just be proving how much of a grasp the media and the marketers have on me. And I can't allow this. The death toll in the south east is up to 175,000. That's more than my little valley. That's like if my little valley was just completely wiped out. and then some. But what about Iraq? What about Yugoslavia? What about Chechnya and Beslan? Iraq had the coverage for ages. How many American Soldiers died in the latest carbomb attacks. But how many Iraqi Civilians? Yugoslavia had some coverage while America was there. Beslan had its week of "remorse." And what about Sudan? What about all the African countries wrought with civil war, AIDS, famine, and general destruction? Maybe they get a paragraph in the newspaper every now and again so people don't forget that Africa exists. What about everything else? The thing I hate the most is I don't know what to do. Does thinking about it help? Should I just relent and become another American Zombie driven by my consumer needs? And I don't know what to do. today was really awesome. I got up at 5:45 and Caleb and I went to the 50 m pool and I swam 2 km. I felt so . effing . great! Then we went back to his house. I ate breakfast. Then we took an hour long nap. We played games in the backyard and then Zeb, Yvetti, and Laura came over. Vetti drove us to Belfast, to the section of land that her family is going to build on. And we mowed it and de-fire-hazard-ed it. It was sooo much fun! :D And we got ice creams afterwards. I was out of my house for 12 hours and 15 minutes. Dinner was yummy scrumboes too. So I'm torn. The future is dim but the present is bright.