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by advertisement on January 2nd 2005, 12:00PM

Feeling: imaginative

12:30 Early Sunday Morning Baby Skeletons HA, i have plans for tuesday. Going shopping with Chris because he needs a new warddrobe (and I am SO fashionable). Hyun Woo called me 3 times To(yester)day. Ugh. But I am going to make an effort not to gossip about him. I try to be nice but it'd be cool if he didn't call me because I'm not very exciting and I get sick of being begged to go to his house. Otherwise today was boring until i got on tonight and talked to Chris about shopping on Tuesday (it's so great having plans and going out with friends), and Zeb is also on to talk to, yay! So this is my meaningless Life. Hello, January. Good to see you again. I'll be living in you for the next 30 days (i hope you spent some time yesterday to get to know me). Let's make it work, okay? I wish I was a genius. I told my mum that and she asked me what I would do if I was. I said I'd save the world. Or take over it. Or both. I want to save the world. I wish people could get along. I wish I could trust everyone. It's sad to see people stuck in dead-end jobs they hate and can't get out and go back to college because they don't have the money and their kids need all the income pouring in, there's no savings account just living on a paycheck-to-paycheck basis. I pray i don't turn out like that. It's sad to see people so worried what everyone else thinks of them that they don't try in school and they spend what little money they have on the trendiest things at hot topic or american eagle or abercrombie, so that they can be looked up to. Because, you know, material possessions are everything. You know, I used to think those people didn't actually exist, that they were just over-used, clichÃ© stereotypes invented in high school movies, but I know people like that. It's real. It's sad. Then those people end up in dead-end jobs. It's like a never-ending cycle. If I get married, I'll wait at least 5 years before having a kid, if I plan someday to have kids at all. I don't know. I just don't want to end up in a bitter divorce because I married someone for the wrong reasons and end up in a dead-end job and worry about what the world thinks of me. Life was meant to be lived. So Here We Go, diary. Let's Live This Thing.

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a colour can represent a personality. you lead me to believe that you were a deep thinker.

a colour can represent every aspect of who you are, if you allow yourself to think that way. your flaws, your highlights. everything.

sorry i bothered.

[endlessdesire]

Fucking a! I've tried being that type but it never works, the do whatever you like, the what the fuck are you doing, the fine if you want leave then do it, the FUCK YOU! type. Nope, not me. I'm a sucker. I'm a lover.

[Anonymous]

deep thoughts..lol

[swimurmaid]

meow.

i liked what you said, what else is there to say besides meow?

Thanks for adding me and calling me cool, i think perhaps this here smile is just about the first one thats graced my face tonight. many thanks. i'll try to add you to my list, as soon as i figure it out.

Actually I had not figured it out as you mentioned that you thought that I had. Haha, anyhow I've been on sD for quite some time, it's just that i'm not a continuous sD'er but since i'll prolly have alot more free time now i'll end up writting more entrys than i should and annoy as many people as possible so that one day i may be assassinated and that will gurantee my entrance into those white pearly gates.

hey this is probably going to sound stalkerish but can i add u 2 my friends list so i don't forget your usern? i like to read ur diary you write about stuff that actually means something unlike most ppl on here who are like omg i like him but he likes her and blah blah blee...yah so imuna add u if u don't mind?

that is a good answer.

so you stay alive because you like things? interesting.

i know...i'm gonna wait until i'm cute to put a new one up

[emosux]

because I can. I don't know my friend Nikki and I were on yim at 3 in the morning and I said hey lets stay up together and we did until
5 am she got sick and I had to fake sleep for a few minutes.

[vampiregoddess]

yeah, it will indeed take awhile, but it will....then you will have the picture you so desire

too bad. i would have thought you to be a colour. for friends, families, hugs, clothes, kisses and such would bring me a colour if i loved them enough.

perhaps you'll find one, someday.

if you grow tired of my questions then please let me know.

what is love, to you?

[forty8point3]

I'm 31.

thanks for the kind comment, by the by.

I love the month of June. It just feels nice somehow.

Happy new year to you.

Have I said that once?
Twice now, maybe.
=)

Eek. Sorry, I was being a bit naÃ¯ve then.

Ah, well, I hope you had a good new year all the same =)

[heartsonwires]

Yes....our senior year will rock!!! we're gonna be cool!! he he. it's the chlorine...it makes us beautiful, funny and awesome. yay!

[tinkleberry]

lol. yea thnx. i dont think my world will shatter either. and if it does i got plenty of duct tape left over. so i'll b ok. :P

xxxAPExxx

bobby is my alter-ego and i'm pretty sure you are real *checks* holy crap my hand went right through you! oh wait you're not here.

It is =)

Can I just ask something? Why does your entry say 2nd January 2005? As far as I know it's still only the 1st but I'm hungover and confused so I might be wrong.

=) I hope your year starts well.

Happy new year.

Ahhh, January.

We don't really get on, January and I.

You know, back when I viewed material items as the only key to happiness and popularity, I said to myself that I was going to wait to have kids until I was [financially] comfortable enough to get them every single thing they wanted.
Or rather, at the time, I think I said "so she can get all of the Limited Too clothes she wants".
Whew. Now that's maturity.

[skipper]

yea i no. i wuz thinkin the same thing. good thing i told u somethin though. otherwise it would have shattered.

ur diary is awsum i luv the layoutz

Awww... that's not true! You have a kitty cat for your pic, It gives it sooo much value! =^D

lol yes i no. i just couldnt have that happen 2 u.

Interesting *talks to self for a moment* Bobby and I agree you are worthy to live another day. *asks self who bobby is?*

awww, thanks, you've made my sleepless day alot better. BTW- it's ten p.m. and I'm wide awake!

word...however that is an old pic and i don't have that hair anymore....probably should change that pic huh?

haha i'm working on it....and are you really gonna make me explain the whole emo sucks thing?

it's not the music....i can get down to some emo music...my favorite local bands are emo/screamo but...it's just the overly emo people that all they do is talk about how life sucks is what sucks

damn it's already 11 p.m here! I have to make it to 1 to have been up a full 48 hours!

it's pretty depressing isnt it? i'd say so.

haha yes exactly

Yea...whats also depressing are lies! What i wrote bites, its the epitome of crap. It's about me being a fucking idiot emo kid pretending my ex girlfriend is still mine while i walk around hastings pretending shes still there, but shes not. SHES NOT DAMN IT! shes gone doing things with out me, cause im an ex. an ex. bah. an ex.