6:48 Early Friday Evening   The Chill There's something wrong with me. I hope I get better because I don't want to tell anyone. I just want to feel healthy again. I just want to feel alive. not in the way that when you're aching and hurting all over, you know you're alive because you wish you were dead. In the way that you can't feel it because it's so easy to get used to feeling it and it's so easy to forget about it. I wish I could say I was different from everyone else.