I know he might not care but I do and Im lost without him. I dunno Everytime I'm at home i think about things that make me miss him, but yet when im out with my friends i think of things that our good and im confused about everything again. Either way i should stop complaining because my words mean nothing when i know it wont change anything. today i went over to Alex's house it was fun I guess, nothing new. I also went to the mall thinking it would make me happy , seeing it normaly does, but no i just cried again. I got a shirt though to ware tomorrow for the hockey game..I dont even know if i can get to see the game because I have a soccer game that i have to go to at 6:30 and man o man im pissed about that, I hope it keeps raining so it will be canceled. Anyways i dont think i have much more to write. Billy