..But we've already fell apart.. i dont even know them anymore.. they are both new people and new people that i cant see, i try and talk about it, or work things out just to understand but i really dont think one wants to.. or just being herself, i mean she could have thought of a better excuse but or just told me that she didnt want to go to begin with.. i acually sent forever thinking of how to put everything and how to say it.. i spent days crying over it and i chose i day that maybe just maybe would fix somethings and it would be a good weekend for everyone to be together atleast for one last day.. but no its just not gunna happen..its never going to happen for one i think is fucking gay that just becuase someone like to drink or another like talking about drugs alot n does some once and awhile then there just cut. really what nice friends eh? for something that small to ruin everything. its who the person is and i support them in it.. as much as it might not seem so but i dont care there my friends and i love them to death and i dont care if im slowly loseing them because i know half of it is my fault. I should just stop trying and let everyone fade away into there own little worlds.. i hate that what i always thought would happen happend. she moved on and now shes just a friend and barley that, the things we have to talk about happened so long ago its just as if were talking about memorise rather then good times. another one i dunno how much longer its gunna be seeing now plans are changing and i keep thinking is not gunna happen.. i dont have forever to wait and sometimes its just like thats whats expected of me.. i wanna tell them both everything and even if it wrecks it more then i wouldnt feel like i had to say something and couldnt because i lost the two bestfriends, if i can even say that anymore, and i never took the time to tell them... it just might have to be that way seeing they just wont even see eachother anymore...