Okay well im in school right now and we have free time, although i dont have long seeing that i have to go and help clean computers but thats okay. One more day untill Medicine Hat and Im not only excited to play soccer and go there but becuz i will get to see alot of my friends that i havent seen in awhile. I was reading my cousins diary on open Diray and omg i love her so much and some of the things she is going though i feel the same way with my life. I look up to her so much..well she is 2 months younger than i am but still she acts like she is an adult, and I thank her for everything, she has the best advice and yet i donno there is so much she deserves that I cant explain..I dont want to clean anymore..lol..Changed my mind. Some times it bugs me that a person that i look up to so much, i barely ever see. Shes coming to my soccer game today, shes amazing and if you read this i hope you know that I love you and i will always be here if you need to talk..even though i might not give the best advice compared to others seeing..I am only 14 and havent figured out my life...nore have i started to even try...unlike some of the people..and you i mean..You know everything about yourself anf understand your feeling, you have people in your life that know alot about you and your not scared to let them know things about your life. I havent finsihed reading your diray yet..lol didnt start from the beging either, I love you poems..haha..there the best and its funny how i understand what your trying to say in them. One last thing..I know i can go on and on about thanking you and how much i care for you and everything but im sure other people dont want to read all of it, nore would they care..anyways I know i always used to not want you to go seeing i would miss you to much and i was scared that i was going to lose you..because your the only one that i know is there for me and that i can trust..Now I know how much you want to go and how much you need to go to make you happy, and really I hate to see you anything but. So when ever you get the chance you should go to cold lake and be happy and finally feel good about yourself, If you need anything at all to get you there..I will try my best to help..Love you lots. Billy