OKay I dont Really Care Who Reads This and I will probably write another one today, this is just one so i can get something off my mind. Anonymous- I dont know why you make me feel this way so much of the things you do sickens me and i dont understand why you do them. I hate to say for the time we've been apart I cant get over you, when it ended, yes i can say i was happy but really i was only thinking of the fact i liked someone else. I never should have let you go i should have stayed with you by your side but we slowly separted and now im lost without you, I've come to think that the time i was truly happy with everything was with you, you made me feel like i was a person and treated me like i've always wanted to be treated. You made me smile and i couldnt get enough of how sweet you were and how nice and conceterate you were to me. I remember the last time i saw you, you have changed so much in appearance but still inside your the one i want to be with. It hurts to know that everytime I look into another guys eyes all I want is you and I know I need to move on and let go because I know you dont care and I know it was just a fling for you but for me it was something more. You made me realize so much and taught me how to feel the way I did. Everyone around me kept saying it wouldnt last, and after all i found they were right, yet at the time i never thought to believe it would have came to what it had. I wanted it to be different, Ive tried to move on but everytime it doesnt feel the same and after words I always would find myself thinking of you. I lay at nights and think about all the memorizes We have had together and it hurts to know that there all gone and after words when everything ended, after i was happy, I was sad, really hurt, and I needed you to be there with me again and i missed you soo much, I know I could trust you to be there for me I remember when I called you out from winnipeg and how much I couldnt stop talking about you and everyone would think i was annoying because of it. Every since i first met you i knew you ment something to me and every since then I have wanted to hold you again. I miss those times when i cryed in my room just over the THOUGHT of loseing you but then I would realize that i wasnt going to because in the moring I was going to go and see you and everything would be better. I remember so much, but i know that you were just a guy and one day i will find another that i care for just as much and the same thing will happen and i know that one day I will look back on this and think that I was just being stupid about everything, Because its not like i dont try and find another because even know I'm really starting to like this other guy and hopefully it wont go on just like every other guy, and end without me careing, like i cared for you. Bailey