wow..i donno what to say I Just woke up about 5mins ago, i was walking up stairs and my sister just says " oh..we might not be going camping" I asked why n shock and she then told me my grandpa died, Grandpa John, I dont know why yet, maybe an anaphilactic shock or his Heart just gave out but wow, it hurts to lose both of your grand parents when they were young, my grandma would have been 63, died at 60 and my grandpa is 69 and died...its so young. they both didnt just die happily in there sleep as far as i no, well my grandma died in her sleep but she had cancer that couldnt be helped and then my grandpa well he didnt die in his sleep he was found today on his bathroom floor..he could have died 2 or three days ago, and then it bugs me cuz the last time i saw him, he was happy and then to me it was just me over at grandps house visting ppl, i was bored i admit it but man, i wish i wasnt i wish i enjoyed seening him happy like he was and seeing him there and everything but no i didnt and now hes gone, it hurts it really does. It scares me for some reason how now i have no grandparents on my dads side of the family, imagin my dad right now? i mean i no hes a guy and he is strong, very strong but when his mom died it was the first time i've seen him cry it wasnt when he heard that she had died but when he saw her lying there in her bed thing that she was in and how you could tell the cancer kicked in, but now its his dad and i mean if my parents died at a young age i dont know how i would haddle it cuz my dad was just saying how he hasnt called him for while and should invite him over for dinner, i thought in my head like why if u have a bad childhood with ur dad would u want him over so much, and heres going to be another vist with Grandpa wow... but man..i wish i didnt say those things to myself, my dad oviously wanted a better relationship with his dad and he was trying, and now its all ended I cant do a thing about it. I loved him with all my heart and yet now part of it is just gone just like when my grandma left I dunno how much deaths i can take, i know theres lots to come and everything but still i dont think i will ever get used to someone dieing, i know ppl die all over the whole but the ones that you know and that are in your family are the ones that affect you and for me i dunno it just hurts thats all..