Wow..I dunno anymore things just started to click in my head all at once, and i hate when it happens, but i'll get over it. I think i know why alot of my relationships havnt been that good..cuz of Devon..I mean i really dont think im over him..well i KNOW im not over him..but maybe thats it maybe i cant have a good relationship untill im finally over him. cuz im sick and tired of guys having to get hurt over me. I wish no one really did, and i wish i never had another bf after Devon maybe it would have helped but maybe it would have just made things worse? ugh i dunno i guess all things happen for a reason right? I hate it though i really do i feel so bad, all the time and i never know what to do... Cuz i no that i cant be with him again..not saying i dont want to, cuz i do i really do but It might just make it even harder for me to get over him, but yet again it might just help me? anyways theres more about that and about Kev and everything in my head and ugh im so confused about the stampede i want so much to come out of it but I no it just wont work that way cuz the person i want to come with im to stupid and shy to ask him..cuz i no hes probably gunna say no...( and no its not Devon this time lol) Oh well i'll just act..like always nothing new right? Yeah well yesterday was Kts party it was fun with everyone..Today we went horse back ridding haha that was a blast, well i thought thanks for the fun time kt I enjoyed it and hope you liked your persent haha, Your the best. Soccer's going great Havnt lost a game yet and were going to inner cities im sooo excited, just cant wait! haha, yeah im playing up for another team on monday thursay and sunday, and man i have alot of soccer but then after that its done for awhile..untill inner cities, but im kinda happy seeing I've had alot of it latly and summer has gone by so fast and i hate it..I feel likes its just started but really half of the first month has gone by and i really dont want to go back to school, not so soon anyways. Theres tonz more about everything i wanted to say i just cant word it right...but it all has to do with this: *At Least You Know HOW To Laugh* Its not really directed to anyone who i think reads this, but is she did im pretty sure she would understand if she did and its not that i cant laugh, it just has to do with having fun and really getting to know things and..ugh i just dont know how to explain it. Billy