wow, i know im feeling something but i just cant think of it haha. Yeah im gunna have trouble typeing this, I have my sisters chemlion on my shoulder and ear lol. Oh well though. ANYWAYS i have had the best time the last few days with Brett Dylan Daniel and Derek, I dont know what it is about them but they make me feel so happy and i can be myself around them and what not. A bad thing is that im starting to really like Brett, more than ever..ugh. I mean its not bad cuz i want to go out with him. I just will feel bad about Cooper, I mean hes my best friend and always will be, hes always gunna be there for me and everything. Its just that he likes me WAY to much, you know it a good thing untill you wanna get a bf and have to put your bestfriend through alot of pain and anger. But then again thats just who he is. He wants me to be happy and everything, I just hate how the past few weeks he's made it all about him, Do this or that, I mean he still is the gentlemen and what not. But you would really have to be there to know what i mean. Its justa bout at the point when i feel used, And it bugs me cuz he is the ONLY one that i can think of that knows who i am, and i thought he knew me really well, and for me to just trun around over some little thing i found out and just ask over and over again, and i dunno, i mean its good for him but it makes me feel used, and I thought if he really knew me he would know that I felt that way. Then again, it'll just be another thing that comes up in a conversation with me and him, im not to worried about that, But what im trying to say is that I try and do so much for him just to make him happy cuz i hate it when he is anything but. And then theres Brett, I like him ALOT and i mean ALOT the last few days have been so comforting and everything i felt so free, yet just with Him, and i miss that feeling. I miss having someone there, I mean i had it for about a day, but that was different. Then again maybe it wasnt?.. I might be making no sence to alot of people and im sorrie, i just really needed to get some things out. Tomorrow im going over to Daniel's house for Halloween im pumped for it, it'll be lots of fun, well i think so anyways, Maybe i'll learn how to play nhl 2005 haha they are pro at that game, and ive never played it, Im going to Dylans Bretts Dalyns..ect's hockey game tonight in excited i love watching hockey(thx Kev) but yeah. Wow, and then Derek Dylan Daniel and Brett, they all respect me and yet treat me like a friend and not just a fragle lil piecie of ass. lol, but yeah. I better just stop blabbing and leave. .Love.You.Always.xoxo. Billy