Man I should have never came home now everything is coming back in my head like i never wanted it to, I was having fun with my life although it was getting really busy so im kinda glad my soccer is cancelled, Its just a practice anyways. I was over at Britts it was fun haha but I wasnt thinking to striaght with my words we lol. Her house is fun Jess was there too they both seem really fun, seeing its the frist time I hung out with Both of them. There going to a movie tonight with Cooper haha Good Luck! lol.. Yesterday i wanted to write but it wasnt working, again I kept trying everything min. I really wanted it to work i guess. Yesterday was realy fun, I saw Weston again and man hes really fun to be with ive never did so much at my house lol. But I won again at Pool, or he lost for him self as he puts it, haha. Ive never actually seen someone just lay in my bed b4 like he did haha it was neat. We went outside and played soccer and juggled for a bit after words haha he kicked my ass at that but it was still fun. Even my brother liked him which i find werid cuz he doesnt like most of the ppl i hang out with...well used to i guess.. After that i went shopping with my mom it was fun i guess although we were in a rush seeing after about 4 stores it was around 6ish and we had to eat dinner still and my brother had a soccer game at 7:45 and i had one at 8:15. Also my parents were going to a concert that night which made my mom want to go home and get ready even more. (well im bored and its a long while l8er) Hmm well i have ton to talk about i feel used agin and the more i think about it the more i think i was right to begeing with. But when i started to think it after awhile i thought it wasnt true bcuz of how everything was going but now Im not to sure anymore. Oh and yeah I dunno but Kirsten I dunno about u yeah i no your hear for me and everything and that you always say that i can trust you but i cant, not when you treat me like im trash, I mean if you dont want to talk to me why do you have me on your msn? I know im your cuzin in all but still and that i look up to you and everything but still i mean its hard to look up to someone when i feel like your pushing me away I know your being you and cant be there for everyone but im your fucking cuzin, i mean maybe family doesnt mean shit to you but you act like your just to good for me and yeah i mean your way more mature and smart and maybe u are but i still have the right to be treated like i used to. I know things change in peoples lives and i know you have moved on from the past and things have changed for you but..ugh i'll stop cuz this is just the way im starting to see things and i really dont want to get into alot of shit anymore. Well I called Weston from fernie lol and i talked to him and Danny it was fun I guess even tho im phone shy god i hate that about myself and also how i suck at starting convos haha oh well tho. Im gunna stop blabbling Love You xoxo Billy