something i JUST got finished writing lauren elizabeth mcintire. Lauren, February 3,2005 I love you to death. More than you will EVER know. I tell you that all the time..at least, I try to...but I don't think I could tell you enough and it probably sounds really stupid..but it's true. I look up to you in so many ways...you have no idea. Ever since our classes changed after midterms we've both been so busy that we haven't really seen or talked to each other very much. But even so, I still think of you and miss you every single day. You're still the first person I think of when I need someone there..and even when I don't need someone, I STILL want you there. Every day this week little things throughout the day remind me of you. For example, every time I look at Jamie I remember how you told me on the phone once that I don’t hate HER I just hate certain things about her...and that if I truly hated her I’d have to hate absolutely everything about her. Just little things like that help remind me of you I guess. You might not think I remember the things you tell me or the things you do, but I do. And you probably don’t realize how much you help me all the time, even when you aren’t trying...especially when you aren’t trying. I know that you think you’re supposedly a bad friend...but you’re not. At all. To me, you’re my BEST friend. And being a best friend doesn’t mean being perfect. I don’t really know where I’m going with all of this. I guess I just want you to know that your friendship means EVERYTHING to me. And THAT’S an understatement. You’re an amazing person and probably the best friend I’ve ever had...honestly. I really miss you. I freaking love you so much. Maybe even too much. I hope you’re doing okay...I really do. I got a chance to talk to you on the phone a few days ago and you talked to me about some things, but it’s not enough. The next chance you get we HAVE to do something. You’re my best friend and I miss you way too much. I really, really miss you. Okay, I’ll stop now. But I love you. You’re beautiful. Oh yeah, I don’t know if I’ve told you yet but I really like you’re hair. You said you colored it or something and it’s a little bit darker..just a little, I like it. Just thought I’d let you know. Love, Ashley Brooke i'm giving that to her tomorrow. but anyhow. today was alright. i had a geometry test and i think i did good on it. hopefully. and i also wrote meg something. nothing else really. oh yeah, todd spent the night last night. i guess he ended up crying and didn't want to leave without pam so he slept on the floor in the room with her. so i don't know. that's about it. later.