nobody woke me up to go to church this morning so i ended up not going and i wasn't too happy about it either!! and because my dad thought i wasn't "responsible" enough to set my alarm and get up on time for church, i was supposedly grounded for the day. that didn't really happen though. anyway, when they (my parents) got home we ate lunch, then i went upstairs and watched Look Whose Talking Too on channel 29 :-) i LOVE that movie and i know that sara does too, so i pretty much thought of her the whole time i was watching it :-) i miss her and i hope she's having fun :-) braden called around 4:00 so i talked to him for a little bit then i had to get off and get ready to go to evening church service. my mom always goes like an hour early because she helps out with the praise team practice, so i told braden to come early..which he did of course..and we sat in my car and listened to music until 5:30, then walked around while i tried my hardest to not let him have the picture that jamie and i colored for him yesterday, because i wanted to wait til she got there so we could give it to him together :-) yayyyy!!! so when she got there we both gave it to him and he LOVED it!! at least he better have!! we worked hard!! after that we went inside and had service. then jamie, nicole best and i left and went to jonathan's house for SNAC with our youth group, like we do every sunday night! everyone went and it was extremely fun :-) i LOVE all of them sooo much!! we played this really weird card game that i could NOT get the hang of at all!! it was terrible!! it was nicole best, MY jamie, braden, emmy moore, me, and mary ellen who played and let me tell ya, when you get us together playing cards it's freaking CRAZZZZY!!! hehe. then after awhile i went outside and called lauren. when i got ahold of her though she was busy watching Elf with her parents and she didn't sound like she really wanted to talk to me anyways, so after about 2 1/2 minutes i told her that i'd just talk to her later and i hung up. it's weird, but the past week or so i've missed her, yes, but i haven't really let it take over everything, like i used to..and the fact that i hadn't talked to her for a few days (up until tonight) hadn't really bothered me a whole lot..but when she acted like she didn't even want to talk to me at all, it kind of upset me!! no, actually, it really upset me..and i'm STILL upset right now!! jamie just got online like 10 minutes ago and imed me but i told her i didn't feel like talking..yes, i didn't want to talk to JAMIE..so i'm pretty upset!! i guess i just thought things would change somehow, like when she got home from camp. i remember last summer, when she got home, she couldn't wait to see me. i saw her the day AFTER she got home!!! and this summer, it's almost like she doesn't care whether or not she sees me at all, and i haven't seen her for over 2 months!! so i don't know. ohhhhh yeah, and braden's mom thinks that i'm "playing" him...but he says that she likes me a lot!! AND that his dad likes me too!! ummmmm okay! whatever!! like that makes sense. i'm NOT playing him!! god, i love him!! i've always LOVED him!! right now i'm just scared because i don't want to hurt him again, therefore i'm just..i don't know..not letting him in. soooo to sum everything up..my supposedly BEST friend doesn't act like she wants to see or talk to me..braden's mom thinks i'm playing him, yet HE says she still likes me..AND lastly, my dad is about ready to kill me!!! so i'd say things are going pretty darn good!! now, what do you think?? yeah, that's all!! later bitches!!!