lauren came to youth group with me tonight and it made me verrry happy! i love her! i wanted it to be perfect though and it wasn't. i had so much that i wanted to talk to her about but i wasn't able to. i wanted to hug her forever and tell her how much i'm going to miss her when she leaves for Doe River Gorge on Sunday, and how much i love her! i hate that she's leaving, but i know that God wants her to go and that something amazing is going to happen while she's there. i'll miss her though! tonight was probably the last time her and i will really see eachother before she leaves :-( i remember last summer when her and i went to DQ on the levee before she left for Doe River Gorge and how we sat there and talked forever..about absolutely everything. it was the last time we hung out before she left, and it was so much different then tonight. i know that her and i are so much closer now than we were then (a year ago), but just looking back and thinking about what we did last summer before she left just amazes me. i miss that. i miss her. it makes me realize not to ever take anything for granted. her and i used to just drive around for hours and talk about everything. it never mattered that we were wasting bunches of gas. all that mattered was trying to make it last as long as possible. that's what i miss. we're both too busy doing other things now to even think about doing that..and whenever i really think about it i remember the saying, "cherish the memories as they happen because they may never happen in the exact same way again." well, that is perfect for what i'm talking about. blu2skyz4: after you left, i cried...like, don't know..i felt so dumb. but braden saw me and he came outside and talked to me forever. and i wanted him to because he's the only one that i feel comfortable crying around. notSOtall10587: aww notSOtall10587: Ashley I'm sorry blu2skyz4: no, it's okay. blu2skyz4: i was just mad, because i wanted tonight to be perfect, i mean, that sounds dumb..but there was so much that i wanted to talk to you about..like, i didn't want to be there..i just wanted to be somewhere else. we weren't able to really talk and that's what i wanted more than anything. i'm going to miss you. notSOtall10587: I know I'm going to miss you too a lot notSOtall10587: I hate that I have to leave notSOtall10587: but for some reason this is what God wants notSOtall10587: everything is for a reason notSOtall10587: and I am trying so hard to tell myself that notSOtall10587: but lately I am having a really hard time believing it blu2skyz4: lauren, i know you hate that you're leaving but you are going to have such an amazing time, and trust me, i will miss you, but you have to go. i know God wants you too. something's going to happen while you're there. something amazing. -yesss i love her and i'm going to miss her so much it will kill me! i hate that she's leaving but i know that it's something that God wants her to do and that something amazing is going to happen, just like last year and the year before. ahhhhhhh i love her sooo much! i miss her already!