today definitely = retarded!! i think my sinuses are dry or something because it really really hurts to breathe and when i do my eyes hurt and i just want to sleep forever. anyways. last night i went to the church with my mom and we played basketball with a bunch of the guys from my youth group. tomorrow all of us are going up to Grove City for Sudden Impact. it's a thing for all the nazarene youth groups. i'm excited. but it's going to be hard because it's only going to be nicole best and i with a bunch of guys on our team and all the other teams are just guys..BIG guys. it'll be interesting :-) today in drafting class eric roberts told me about when he was riding his bike home from alex gentry's house and there was this big hill and he crashed. so he ended up having to push his bike a mile home because the wheels were so messed up and he told me that he was crying and bleeding really bad. and i'm sorry but i died laughing. oh my gosh. just the way he told me about it made me picture it. haha. i'm mean :-) yay!! but he's just as mean because he kept calling me an ass bitch or something. i don't really know. hmm..what else. oh yeah. i thought it was funny that today during lunch while i was finishing a note for lauren and saying "i keep looking up, hoping to see you in the hallway waiting for me. i want to talk to you. i miss you." and she ended up coming down to talk to me. i love her!! in gym yesterday kayla ewing got hit in the face or something with a ball and she screamed "YOU F-ERS, I HATE YOU!!" haha i died. it was hilarious!! gym would not be the same without her in it :-) my mom found out that her papaw died today and he was sick for 3 weeks and her dad never freaking called her to tell her. he decided to be an asshole and call her AFTER papaw died!!! my mom has always been so close to her papaw..and her mom and dad knew it. they didn't call her because they knew she'd come down to see him and they didn't want her to. papaw never liked them anyways!! i hate them so much!! you don't understand!! and my mom's so upset right now. i hate it!! they can just go to hell!! seriously!! god i hate them!! i think i'm going to call them and tell them how terrible they are! you're probably reading this and thinking "wow. she's mean." but you don't know them..you don't know what all they've done to my mom. so yeah. okay, i'm done being mean now. i miss lauren soooo much. too much!! i want her here right now! lauren, i hope you feel better :-) well, i'm going to go. later.