i wrote lauren something last night and told her a lot of what's going on with me right now. not everything though. she was glad that i did, even though she knows it wasn't everything. i just can't tell her or anyone else everything right now. anyways, graduation is in a few days :-( but the seniors only have like 4 more days or something like that. i miss tara and jamie already, and they're not even gone yet. is that bad? the past 2 weeks i have tried my hardest to be happy that summer vacation's almost here, but i'm not. i'm sorry. to me, summer means being without my friends for 3 months, and it honestly kills me. so i'm sorry if i don't seem that excited for it to get here :-( jonathan, aka red, and i are spending practically the whole weekend together. he's taking me home from school tomorrow (friday) then saturday we're going to the mall all afternoon until he has to go to work at 5:30..and sunday after morning service we're going to see star wars together..then hangout until evening service. it should be a very fun weekend..and i must say, i'm pretty darn excited! yayyy..bring on the weekend! ohhh yeah i went to therapy tonight. it was okay, except for the fact that it was alicia's last day being there (the college student that i really like) because she's graduating from washington state next week. so i was kind of upset and didn't really want to leave. then i started thinking about our graduation and i got even more upset :-( it was bad. i tried really hard not to cry. gosh, it was so hard. i freaking hate this!! my mom finally went to court today to see what all she has to do to get past this whole drug thing. the judge ruled that she will be on probation for 3 years..which means she has to be home before 12 and can't leave the house until after 6 in the morning, get permission to leave the county, and she can't have a gun, knife or alcohol in her posession (sp?) for 3 freaking years. ohhh yeah, and she has to go away to some rehab place for a month..i forget the name of it. but yeah. it might be better then her going to prison for 10 years..like she could have..but it still freaking sucks!!! welp, that's all i have to say. later!