today was absolutely marvelous!! well, except for the fact that i didn't really get to see tara all day. i hate graduation so much! but yeah, other than that, everything was pretty darn good, i must say :-) tomorrow i have two parties! one in spanish, and one in biology :-) yayyyy! they're my two least favorite classes and i don't have to do anything but eat and have fun :-) that definitely sounds good to me. lauren came to lunch today and it was very awesome! she opened up to me so much and told me things that she hasn't before. it made me so happy, because it was so different then it has been. like, neither of us have really been able to talk or open up to eachother for a while now because we've both been going through a bunch of stuff, and distancing ourself from eachother. so it was verrrry nice! yay, i love her! jonathan picked me up for youth group tonight and i laughed so hard on the way there because, well, what can i say, he makes me happy :-) goshhh it's so different with him. i don't know what it is, but something's different and god do i love it! so anyhow, when we got there him and i played basketball for a little bit, then i talked to sam and jamie. they're my girls :-) i love them! anywho, zach did the lesson and it was very good. i was surprised. hmmm i thought it was weird how braden was talking to jonathan the whole night and was constantly with him. all last week he was pissed at him because he found out i had jonathan's number on my hand or something. yeah, so jonathan and i think it was just because he was trying to keep him away from me. most likely, but i don't know. my feelings for braden changed, we're not getting back together. i know it's hard..god i know it's hard, but he has to know that! and i don't know if i can even be friends with him right now, it's too soon for me! i know that he feels weird not talking to me at all after we used to tell eachother everything..and yeah, sometimes it's weird for me too, but i just can't do that right now. i'm sorry, but i just can't! blu2skyz4: soooo what were you thinking tonight at youth group? wrestlerbbj: like afterwards blu2skyz4: well..any time i guess wrestlerbbj: you wrestlerbbj: it was like that all day in class too blu2skyz4: you make me laugh wrestlerbbj: well i try wrestlerbbj: when im with u i smile more and always have fun wrestlerbbj: :-P blu2skyz4: yay blu2skyz4: me too blu2skyz4: and that hasn't happened for awhile blu2skyz4: like, i don't think i've been this happy for awhile wrestlerbbj: ive never meet anyone before that im so comfortable to be around wrestlerbbj: and always have a good time with yep, just a couple things that jonathan said to me tonight that made me smile :-) i just thought you'd like to see them. hehe. well, anyways. lauren's leaving for nationals tomorrow so she won't be at school, which is very poopie! it's okay though because she's sitting with alex on the bus and he makes her very happy so i'm glad :-) i hope they do good though! i wish, more than anything, that i could be there to watch her row :-( i'll miss her so much! but i'm burning her a pretty cd for when i see her tuesday :-) yayyyy! i'm excited! p.s. i miss megan, and sara's freaking sweet ass! i love her! p.s.s. i'm taking a chance with jonathan. i don't know what will happen, but i'm going with it and if it's meant to be then that's awesome, but if not, at least i'll know :-) god, he makes me smile!