i've decided i'm going to start trying to write in this more often..not every single day, but more than once every month. i've actually kind of missed writing in this, because i can't really write certain things in my xanga..personal things, since everyone reads it. and i like knowing that, most of the time, megan and sara are the only ones that read this. it's almost one in the morning right now but i can't sleep, so i decided to get up and read some of my old entries on here. all i have to say is wow, things have changed a lot within the past year or so..i've changed a lot. but i've realized that things have to change and that it doesn't always have to be a bad thing. right? but sometimes it is. Dear megan and sara, i know things have changed a lot between us this year. i stopped trying in our friendship and i want both of you to know how sorry i am. you guys were ALWAYS there for me last year, and helped me through absolutely everything!! i would never have made it this far if the two of you didn't care as much as you did!! i never had to ask you guys to be there, you just were and you don't know how much that means to me still. so, even though we haven't hungout a whole lot this year and don't talk as much as we used to, i want you both to know that you were and still are my best friends. i miss you guys all the time..and i love you both very much!!