it's getting closer and closer to finals and i'm starting to get really stressed out. my grades aren't absolutely fantasic and everything else isn't really that great either so i don't know. i want school to be over but then again i don't. i hate not being able to see my friends every day. so that's probably why i really don't like summer vacation, but i don't really want to stay in school either because i'm getting really sick of the teachers and all the work. so yeah. besides getting ready for finals and all of the end of the year projects, i have a million other things to worry about so i'm really stressed out, but i think everyone is. so the fact that i am doesn't really matter. i was going to wear my hair down today but i ended up putting it up at literally the last second. it just bugs me to have it down i guess :-( so anyhow, my day was pretty much normal. nothing really stands out to be honest. it was just one of thoughs days that you really don't care a whole lot about..and you don't care if it's one that you remember or not. ya know? hmmm...we had our october sky test in english today though and i'm hoping that i did okay on it. i have my figures crossed :-) i waited on lauren to come to lunch today, because i swear to god that she told me, before she left youth group last night, that she would be there. but she never showed up. it kind of upset me too because she leaves at 5:30 in the morning for crew, so she won't be in school at all tomorrow. which means i won't see her tomorrow OR all weekend :-( gosh, im realllllly going to miss her! i'm starting to HATE friday's!! i was suppose to go to the mall with jonathan tonight because he was going to go to get shoes, and i told him that i wanted to go with him. so i called him at 3:30, like i told him i would, but he wasn't home. so i left a message and it's 8:00 but he hasn't called back yet. so i doubt we're going anywhere tonight :-) hah. he wants me to come over to his house saturday because a bunch of people from our youth group are going to be there too..so i will probably go. ohhh yeah, being the nice kid that jonathan is, he burnt me a cd from his tpt cd because i asked him to :-) wasn't that sweet of him? i hope braden and i do something this weekend. i miss him. we haven't done anything in a really long time..besides youth group, but that doesn't count. anyway, last night lauren told me that braden and i were the cutest couple ever and that made me very happy. in a way it kind of reassured me that i shouldn't be having second thoughts about things like i have been. and i love her for that. seee..lauren can say the littlest thing in the world, but it ALWAYS means the most. no matter what it is. she just does things like that. things that would normally NOT matter to anyone else, but for some reason it means everything to me because she says everything at the exact right time. i wish i could explain it better, but i can't. i love her! she's my best friend! well later buttheadsss!!!