today was the last day of summer. and a few weeks ago i would have told you that i wanted to go back to school, more than anything, but now i would gladly move away just to avoid it. i guess part of me does want to see certain people again but that's probably about the only reason i can think of that would make me consider wanting to go back. i've not only learned a lot about myself this summer..i've also learned a lot about other people..both good and bad things. and i've had loads of time to realize things that i should have a long time ago. like how change can definitely be a very good thing. and i've decided that i want this year to be different..to be better. i don't want to worry about or put too much emphasis on things anymore. all i want is to have fun. the past two years, i've screwed up pretty much everything..relationship wise, frienship wise, and school wise. i don't want to do the same thing again. and i have a feeling that things are going to be a whole lot better this year. and i hope, for my sake, that it's not just a feeling..that things really are better. i'm ready for change..no matter how big or small it is..even though i'd much rather it be big. i've learned that change is good. it might not seem like it at the time, but it always turns out to be..no matter how long it takes. things always happen for a reason. and sometimes it's difficult to understand that, but once you do everything's so much better than it was.