last night after graduation i came home, got packed, then headed over to casey and sam's house. most of our youth group was there and it was sooo much fun, so be jealous! we had hamburgers, hot dogs, and tons of other yummy things :-) yayyyy! jonathan wasn't there though because he still wasn't feeling very good and i missed him a lot! anyways, braden and nicole threw me in the pool..after they got thrown in. so all three of us were in there. haha. it was great. we had a bonfire and we made yummy smores! yay! all the guys left around 12:30 and us girls stayed the night. verrrry fun! when i got home this morning i got online and megan asked me to go with her to the mall, so i did of course..because i love her! so she came to pick me up around 1:00. when we got there she realized that she left one of the receits at her house, so we went all the way back to her house to get it, after stopping at wendy's for lunch, then went back to the mall and shopped around some. so since we were in the car forever, we were able to talk about a lot of stuff and it was nice. i missed meg so it was very fun! i love her verrrry much x a million bizillion and one! after she dropped me off at home i came in and talked to jonathan online for a little bit, then he came to pick me up around 7:00 and we went to mary ellen's together. nicole, casey, bethany, mary ellen and i were there and we got to eat some very yummy food :-) then we played crocea (sp?) out in the yard, and i lost very badly because i totally suck at that game :-) oh well. jonathan and will kept throwing stuff at us out the window and they hit me in the head :-( but it didn't hurt. hehe. and now i'm here. i was talking to casey, nicole, lauren and sara for awhile, then casey and nicole had to leave..so then i was just talking to lauren and sara. sara's mad at me now and so is lauren. i guess i must just be a total bitch or something. i mean, if both of my best friends are mad at me, what else could i be? hmmmm don't know. i wish they weren't mad at me. now i know lauren won't be able to talk to me forever..which is just great because we have 3 days of school left, so yeah! i just screwed our friendship up, literally! i love how i always do or say something that just makes everything worse. she won't talk to me about anything now..i know she won't. so i think i officially hate myself now. sara's mad at me too and that kills me. it's bad enough having lauren mad at me, but when sara's mad it's so much worse because she's the one that i know will always be there, so if i screw things up with her then i pretty much have no one. she's there always, including when lauren's pissed at me. i can't lose sara. i'll die if i do. i'm so sorry. i love you!