i definitely had a better day today. happy face. yay!! anywho, alison wasn't at school today because she's in choir and they left for NYC late last night :-( poop on them!! so yeah, i had a boring moring :-( oh well, mr. jonathan always makes it interesting :-) so my morning wasn't that bad. then right before 4th period began, lauren came into my spanish class JUST to tell me that she'd be late to lunch because she had to drop a book off at the library and stuff. she wanted to make sure that i knew she was coming though, because she knew that i needed to talk to he about something. so i thought that was cool :-) then 5th period was lunch, and when she got all her stuff done she came in and we talked a lot :-) then i gave her the note that i wrote her last night. it was about my parents and what happened yesterday after school. i had told her online late last night that something had happened and that i was GOING to call her but decided not to because i knew she was busy. but you know what she said?? she was like, "well you still should have called me." and that surprised me because she'd never say that..she'd normally just say something like, "oh sorry." but she actually said that she wished i would have just called her if something was wrong. and it made me very happy. but anyways, back to today. she read the note, and i just sat there..next to allie..and waited to see what she was going to do when she was done reading it. i wanted her to say something so bad. like, the perfect something. but i just sat there and acted like i didn't notice that she was reading it. then when she was done, she got up out of her seat, came over next to me and hugged me..infront of allie and everyone else..and told me that she would definitely pray for my parents and me. and i wanted to cry so bad. you have no idea..because what she did, and what she said WAS perfect. i love her so much!! when i know that she IS there, nothing else matters. i don't know why, and i don't know how to explain it..all i can say is that i need her, and she is FINALLY there when i need her. looking back, last week when her and i got into a fight and stuff, i thought that was the end of our friendship. like, i was so upset/mad at her that i honestly just wanted to give up on it, and EVERYTHING else. i would have never expected that our friendship would end up becoming stronger after everything..but it has. i think it is actually stronger than it's ever been :-) you probably don't think it's true, but she's trying now. and that's all i need :-) and i love her verrrrrrrrry much!! after our fight last week things were weird for a couple days, but earlier this week i talked to her online and told her pretty much EVERYTHING that i felt about what she was doing..and how she wasn't there. and ever since then (a few days ago) she has actually been there for me. she's come to lunch..or told me when she CAN'T come. she's actually showed that she cares by telling me that she does. i really can't even explain all that she's doing..but i'm glad that she finally is. really, reallly, very glad. anyways. like i said, when she hugged me today i knew that everything was going to be okay..with my parents..and just everything. and then she told me that she was going to make me a necklace on her bus ride for crew, on the way to indianna today! yay :-) so i'm excited to see it. i hope she does really good and has lots of fun! i love her!! well..the rest of my day was okay i guess. i ended up getting a ride home with jamie and when i got home i found out that my mom had canceled my therapy appointment. so i didn't have to go to that :-) good i didn't want to anyways! i'm not sure how my parents are right now. i'm actually trying to avoid asking for awhile, in hopes that everything will work out for itself. please god let it work out! i won't ask for anything else. well, i'm going to go. later.