So I really need to do something about my lap top and our desktop. I'm sick of my sister's using my lap top all of the time just because our desktop is broke and shit. Its really just pissing me off, maybe I'll talk to my mom later about things ... People are really making me mad again. I mean it seems like I only have that one friend who cares and talks to me and is always there when I need her. The hard thing is we live 35 minutes apart, why can't I have friends around my house that actually care. The sad thing is that they all cared when I was on the verge of suicide than now that I'm better and doing do those things anymore. How horrible is that. Sometimes I think about going back to my old ways and doing those things again just because it was a way to deal with life, especially mine. I know that I can't but it just doesn't matter anymore. I'm trying to learn some songs on my guitar but it isn't working just yet. I seriously suck but hopefully I will be decent enough to not have to worry about people saying how bad I am and crap. I'm actually getting better I just need to learn some tabs and then practice and practice and practice. The guy I babysit for is going on 12 hours shifts pretty soon which means I'll be babysitting from 6:30 am until 2:45 pm. I mean those are going to be very long days but I need the money so I really can't wait until that happens. It sucks that I can't babysit when I start school again but oh well, things happen. Well I'm going to go take a shower and find something to wear for the day.