So I haven't updated in a while and I haven't had much to say. I've just been doing a lot of thinking and I've actually started to realized with the help of my friend that not all people that have walked into my life just recently are bad people. I need to give people a chance rather than push them out before I get to know them because it doesn't get me anywhere. I have realized that some people really do care even if they don't act like it. I also realized that no matter how jealous I am of people, I can't be. I mean, I'm me for a reason and if I wanted to change something I could. I need to stop caring about how other people see me and just care about how I see myself. Which now isn't good but starting to look up. So stupid. Well I have nothing else to say but hope that everyone is doing good and I'm sorry for neglecting this so much ...