i realized that i finally needed to stop dwelling on the things that i don't have and realize what i do have. i have great friends on occasion and i have a great boyfriend and i have a great family on occasion. i have my dogs and cats who love me. i have a life which some people don't get or it gets taken from them. i need to be happy and realize that things could be worse, but for once in my life, they're actually looking up. after chanel's mom katherine called me after the daytona 500, i was debating whether i would call her back or not. i figured i would and we ended up talking for like twenty minutes on the month. i haven't seen nor talked to her since last june so it was nice to talk to her. i'm excited for the track again and even though its still four months away its alright. i have bragging rights and i have great family and i'm pretty stoaked about being able to be in my favorite atmosphere again. on another note i think i'm going away to school next year. i'm thinking grand valley or ferris state because they have a technical writing program that i can go into along with my bachelors in english. i need to fill out applications next week and start doing my fafsa form and shit so i can figure out where to go and how to pay for it. oh school is stupid but i know that i won't get anywhere without a degree and i need to just stick with it. oh well. its cold out and i need to shower since i'm going to my sister's scrimmage at the expo and that's at seven. hope you all [or no one at all] are doing well.