i cuddled with a cute boy yesterday. and he totally made me smile. i've been to the gym five days in a row, not counting tonight. this is the first step to the new me. rick says i'm stronger than i thought. and that he'll make sure i get down to my ideal weight. and that he's surprised i haven't been sore the last two days. i've been smiling more and actually laughing and i feel like a new person. i also have been eating more and sleeping better. steve comes home soon and i don't know what to do about that. seriously, i swear i'm in love with him. matt called me yesterday and it sort of depressed me. it seems like everyone lately likes me for some reason or another. why is it that i don't like them though.