over the last two days i have been doing a lot of thinking. in the shower yesterday morning i came up with something that i needed to get off of my chest. a bunch of lies that i always believe when in the end they're just out right dumb. the perfect female in so many thousands of guys eyes is the blonde hair, blue eyed model perfect girl. the first person that crosses my mind is paris hilton, who no one can compete with. why is it that guys come up with this "perfect female" when you will never measure up to their standards. obviously i don't have blonde hair nor do i have blue eyes or am model perfect, but the one quality that i have is the fact that i am me and i don't let these little things ruin my life. however, i hate hearing you're so perfect never change or i like this about you or that about you because you don't. you just say those things because you think it'll help me feel better or make you look like a better person, but that's where you my friend are wrong. i've learned the tricks and i know the game that you're playing ... been there done that ... you can't win with me by feeding me those stupid fucking lies. i'm perfectly happy with my brown hair and my dark secretive eyes because that's what makes me unique. you can keep dreaming of the blonde hair blue eyed beauty and if you ever find one that isn't fake please do me a favor and let me know where she's been hiding.