I try to smile everyday thinking about all of the good things that I have in my life right now. Sometimes I can't force that smile out though but most days just thinking about him makes me smile real big and cheesy. I have great friends and am doing good in school and hardly work but am still really busy. I miss him though. Its like we hang out all the time and such and than I don't see him for days. I know that he's busy but I really like him and its so weird for me because I'm trying to keep my guard up for once I can't. He greets me with a huge hug and a kiss when I walk in the door and I love waking up next to him. Just everything about his is absolutely wonderful. Ugh ... please make this work for once.