so i find out last night that matt can't go to the wedding with me. i was so excited about the wedding and my birthday and last week i get this terrible gut feeling and than bam last night he tells me he can't come. i'm like man this freakin sucks because i don't think i have anyone else to invite. i'm so definitely sad but i guess its life and nothing i can do about it ... my birthday is in four days and i'm not excited about it anymore. i was thinking about going to canada on saturday to celebrate my sister's birthday but i think i might go to a show with a friend of mine. i'm not sure yet. i just wish that i could sleep this entire week and wake up when its all done.