I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last two weeks or so. I've realized that I need to start living my life and forgetting everyone that makes me unhappy. I'm in this whole new self-realization stage. It kills me to know that you don't care and everything you ever said was a lie, but you know what, I'm a big kid and its a part of life so its time for me to move on with my life and cut you out completely and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I found out some dreadful information last night and I don't know if I should be hurt or if I should be mad. Joycelynn [I think that's how you spell it] told me some stuff about Brian last night that really made me mad and sad at the same time. I'm glad that we're going to try to be friends and I told her that she could have him. Supposedly he's trying to play us both, or at least that's the vibe I got out of it. I'm definitely done talking to him :/ Boys can be so selfish sometimes. Other than that, I should ace at least two of my classes this semester and I go to the other two today and tomorrow. My dad left me without a car so I have to call him today about that since I will need one for tomorrow and Thursday more than anything :/ He's making me mad too lately. Ugh ... hope everyone else is doing good. I'm gonna go back to bed and send Ryan a text message since today's his birtday :] Mine is in under two months ...