Man, I forgot what it was like to have a friend to confide it who sometimes you'd rather him lie than be completely honest with you. R is that friend to me now. We talk everyday and he doesn't treat me differently or look down upon me, he only tries to help me even if I don't want to hear it and sometimes want to just punch him. I don't sleep at night and hardly eat now. Maybe if this keeps up I'll actually be happy with the way that I look rather than look in the mirror and be disgusted ... Ugh, why do somethings have to be so difficult. Rather than working ten hours today, I should be in Battle Creek watching my sister play softball. Ugh, stupid work and having to work every single weekend. At least I'll have next Saturday and Sunday off but just because its my birthday weekend and I took them days off. Screw this place sometimes :/