[77] i could have been someone

Listening to: Silverstein
Well well well ... I have nothing to say like usual so I'm sorry that the few of you that come to this are looking forward to something. Things are weird again and I can't truly explain them, well I could but I don't want too because a lot of you aren't worth my thoughts or words or explanation or anything for that matter. School started and I'm already overwhelmed with everything. I have a lot of reading to do and I still have to buy two books. My English teacher wants my whole class to make an online blog for her class and write on it. I'm debating which site I want to use for it since I already have two blogs. Hopefully I can get through this semester because I know already that its going to be tough. Adam came home on Friday so me and Chanel drove down there to see him when he got home. We picked out some bad ass clothes for him since he didn't have any and he looked sweet. We spent the weekend down there and met some of his Army buddies. Overall I had a fun weekend but a long drive home. Adam's coming home to Michigan at the end of the month and I guess some of his Army guys are going to come too or something. We'll see how that goes because they won't be here to see me anyway so I don't know. So I thought that I had things figured out with someone but turns out I don't have any fucking clue. It doesn't really matter since he's gone for a while but I seriously just want him to come home. We never dated or anything before but lately he's all that I can think about. I'm not sure if its just because he came home of if because the old feelings that I had for him are still there. I just want to know how you feel and see if its even worth my time :[ I wish that I had some answers ...
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yeah, they really are.
we're still friends though. Which is good. But in a way i wish i could be angry at him. That would make this a whole lot easier.
Ah well.
How are you feeling tonight?
I wish I had answers to a lot of things.

I like reading your diary, whether you have anything to say or not.
I'm not a great person I just talk a lot.
Well you kind of read mine, and that's what matters, right?! :)

Have fun xxx
Awwww. ♥

Your comments really made me smile and actually made me feel a whole lot better. You know.. just to know and see that someone cares still. Really. (:

His birthday is coming up next month and I really just want to go out and buy a gift anyway. Because I don't want to forget that day y'know? Because then it seems like I'm forgetting him. And I don't want that. I don't know..
And about that person.. maybe you want him back because he's not there. And maybe you really did like him more than you thought and it took them being away for you to see it? -shrug- I haven't experienced anything like that to even guess though so I'll just stop.

Sounds like you had a fun weekend. That's good. (:

Much love.
♥,
- Jess

Oh and by the way.. new AIM s/n: jesskeepsitreal.
That's a lot of work though! Plus remember to ignore half the things I say at the beginning of it...