so just when i start to get extremely happy things mess me up again. all because i let stupid little people bring me down :/ seriously i really need to work on that i think. i realize time and time again that people treat me like crap and walk all over me. i say that i'm going to cut them out and i even tell them that i want nothing to do with them but does it change anything NO. time and time again i let them come back because they say they'll change and things will be different and since i only have one real friend i believe them over and over. well nothing changes and i still get treated the same way. this time i'm rally saying that i'm done for good because this isn't fair to me and never will be. tyler posted a myspsace bulletin that was a survey and one of the questions was how many x's are on your friend's list and he put none. i sent him a message and was like hey i'm an x and i'm on your list and then he went off to say i'm sorry i wasn't even thinking and i'm like yeah sure. god if i'm that bad of a fucking person and you don't want to be reminded of me then stop sending me mixed signals and stop being such a douche bag. i know that i shouldn't care because i'm completely and utterly head over heels for steve and i can't wait for him to come home, but tyler used to be such a good friend and now every other day i hate him and who he's become. i need to just say good-bye once and for all and not keep letting him back in. there was a fire at my work so i have no idea how long we're closed for which means that i might have to go find a new job because i can't go all of these days without working. my coworker katie called me yesterday to tell me in case i had to work and i was pissed that none of my managers called me. they're all stupid. i need to try to get a hold of one of them or something because i need to know how long i'm not going to be working for. i already lost 2 days of hours and our new pay period just started. god, i'm like screwed ... hope that you all are doing well and don't waste your time reading this because its pointless anyway