idk what is wrong with me. I need help. it was familiar. i miss familiar. i can't do this anymore.. pretend everything is ok. things keep piling up. i did it again. i promised tim i wouldn't but idk what it is.. i haven't done it in a long time. it stings. i don't care. i feel something. I've been so numb. Bayside- How to Fix Everything The sharper the edge, the cleaner the wound. So, I'll be keeping it dull tonight for I deserve to hurt. Disfigure the outside to show how ruined I am. There's no pain and no pleasure when you're too numb to feel. There's a pedestal across the room, And if I try to climb again, This time the fall is fatal. I don't deserve such an easy exit, So maybe my Spine can snap on impact, and I'll Have to crawl away.I'm ready to take that big step, Start tearing off the layers I put up; Or is it too late to be Anything but what I am? Identify the problem, now let's see If we can fix anything. Just close the door and let me do what I need, 'Cause it's better for us if you just let me leave. I'm ready to take that big step, Start tearing off the layers I put up; Or is it too late to be Anything but what I am? Identify the problem, now let's see If we can fix anything. How to fix everything... I love these lyrics. I love Bayside.... they have no idea how much. ----- Oh a less depressing topic... i got a call today for an admin position. I didn't see it until too late but it was for not just admin but web maintenance and html and flash stuff too.. marketing etc. it sounds really cool... the company is LA tho i think.. not sure.. doesn't matter if I am making enough money.. I miss having a job! especially one like that.. would be such a great opportunity. but as usual.. not getting my hopes up. Just see what happens...