I love timmy. we played halo tonight. last night we didnt play halo uz we took a long nap instead. We likes the cuddles. but tonight was nice. we went grocery shopping and timmy said the 3 dudes in the spices isle were checking me out like woah. psh. what we're they evn looking at? I had a huge jacket on and jeans. weirdies. when we got back i did the dishes and timmy came over and helped me. i like doing things fr timmy. like laundry and dishes and stuff. he works soo hard and does so much for me. i figure its the least i can do and i like making him happy. after that we played halo. and and and... i ALMOST got MVP. almost. at the end I couldnt stop dying for some reason. but in te beginning I was killig everyone and i was mvp and tim was 2nd. but its ok. i got 18 kills and the MVP got 22. yeah we're nerds.
i was watching comedy central the other night and this guy as so funny. well kinda. mostly.
in the store an oldies song came on. the sue one. i dont know the name. but it reminded me of swing dancing. and i thought how fun would that be? to learn swing dancing for our wedding and have a bunch of swingy songs. not all swing songs. jus some. i dunno. im not much of a dancer. i dont think tim likes to dance. i mean we goof off but we dont go dancing or anything. i dont want to be lame on my wedding dday and be the only ones unable to dance. but it might turn out that way. thinking of the guest list, i cant even picture dancing.
timmy has been so amazing. not that i dont think that of him all the time. just especially recently. I dont deserve him. He's so patient with me. and sweet and everything I wanted and its weird. bcause i prayed for that and it happened. and i know i shouldnt think thats weird because God is capable of anything but still... thinking about how everything came together is still pretty hard to understand. how can something i thought was so torn apart turn into what I needed?
may 25th is ridiculously close.. i get a little short of breath thinking about how that will come together.. maybe it wont. i mean last year i thought it would be so many different dates. march 2007. april. may. no june. july. august. september. november... and then we broke up lol. i dont even have dress. i dont even have an idea of where. or how much our budget would be. i dont know anything. I just want to be married already. I want to start our life together. I miss my bed.
speaking of bed.. I should go to it.
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