So today was interesting. Manuel helped me get some stuff from tims. Its weird being there. I just.. i want to curl up on the bed and fall asleep and have things go back to over a year ago. but then i realize.. things are good the way they are going. he is moving on. I am moving on. we're okay. we're going to be anyways. Sometimes when i think about it tho. just all of it.. i cant breathe and i get this weird panicy feeling like I'm falling. it lasts few seconds and then it goes away. I dont know how long that feeling will keep reoccuring. i want it to go away. but then it also makes me sad to think about not having it.. like if i dont.. then i really am over it. and yeah it just makes me sad. but other than that. i am okay. I mean I have broken up with people before. this is kinda different but.. considering.. im okay. That is atngiht. when everyone feels lonely. When everything feels helpless. I talked to him today. I wanted to tell him that i went to the apartment to get my stuff and ask why a bag was packed. but it was just for evacuation.. cuz i kinda told him all of canyon country was being evacutated when it was on the other side.. other than that, i helped manuel do some chores. and talked to jason. i could really fall for this guy. i'm in limbo with him right now. im not exactly holding back as much as i should. but im not opening up as much as i should. i cant decide which way to go. we have another non date tomorrow. real date on saturday. i dont like long distance relationships generally. but i think i prefer that he lives far away right now. i dont need the everyday thing so soon or at all. i like the everyday thing. but i think i need to just chill out and take it slow. er than slow. like molasses. i mean its just a second date. ha. ha indeed. one thing i like about him... he likes to run. i like running. but i suck at it. right now. but he said he would want to run with me if i wanted to. soo. that would be cool. fun and fitness. woot. i made a body pillow. rilo kiley rocks my world. amongst others. Part 1- ME Were you a planned baby? yeah Were you the first? president? no.. no i wasnt.. Who was present at your birth? who knows.. at least my mom. heh. Were your parents married when you were born? mhmm PART 2- THE FAMILY Parents married or divorced? divorced. An only child? no theeres a jason alsooo If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? youngest unless u count my half brother.. then i'm in the middle Which parent do you get along with best? i guess my mother Do you have step-parents? not that i know of.. PART 3- THE FRIENDS Do you have more than one best friend? i guess What do you like to do when you are together? talk. build robots. play the violin. .. yeah. Do you share the same interest? some Which friends can you tell everything to? a few. PART 4- YOUR PERSONALITY Do you have low self esteem? it varies. Do you get depressed about things easily? depends on the thing really.. Do you consider yourself an extrovert or an introvert? introvert at first.. extrovert after a while. shorter while with some people. Are you happy? i think so. Do you live life to the fullest? fo shizzle. PART 5- APPEARANCE Are you comfortable with the way you look? yeah Describe your hair? just past shoulders, almost black How do you dress? mostly jeans and converse. Were you a strange child? from what i hear.. and remember What is your ambition? i'm not sure. its been changing a lot lately. Are you scared of growing old alone? now and then Do you want to get married? mhmm. but to the right person. PART 6- THE OUTDOORS Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? outdoors. what season? fall Do you like walking in the rain? yes it is splendid. PART 7- FOOD Are you a vegetarian? i need meat What is your favorite food? potatoes What food makes you want to gag? spicy things What is your favorite dessert? strawberry short cake PART 8- RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE Are you single or taken? single.. If taken who is the lucky guy/girl? thats classified. sorry. Do you think love is the best feeling in the world? more than anything. 60 Things You Didn’t Care to Know About Me and Didn't Ask: 1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? >my drum set 2. When was the last time you threw up? >ew i cant remember. 3. Why did you last throw up? >stressss 4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? >Jason. Manuel. Brother haha brother.. 5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning? >sleeping. g's 6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? >talking to jason 7. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be? >justin timberlake. or ryan gosling. or that guy fromm across the universe. 8. Have you ever been to a strip club? >ew 9. What is the last thing you said aloud? >what?... my brother tried to scare me. he did not succeed 10. What is the best ice cream flavor? >rainbow sherbert 11. What was the last thing you had to drink? >waterrrr 12. What are you wearing right now? >polka dot top and pj shorts 13. What was the last thing you ate? >jac in the box 14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? >unfortunately no. i want tooooo 15. When was the last time you ... ? > ... what do the dots imply?? this question is too sneaky for me. 16. What's the last sporting event you watched? >people were watching footballl on my birthday! lebsians. 18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? >corina 19. Ever go camping? >mhmm love it 20. Were you ever an honor roll student in school? >haa. 21. Do you like sushi? >sure unless its really spicy or really slimy 22. Do you have a tan? >ha I'm brown... 24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? >no because straws give you cheek wrinkles.. gosh 25. What did your last text say? >something like.. "i know.. you addict you." cuz yeah. just watch the movie.. 26. Are you someone's best friend? >sure 28. Where is your mom right now? >church 30. What color is your watch? >i dont do watches 31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? >crocodile hunter. ha. 32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? >mhmm... 33. What is your birthstone? >opal? i think. 34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? >drive through 35. What is your favorite number? >21 36. Do you have a dog? > 2 uglies. 43. What does your first memory of your sister involve? >what sister? jason is quite feminine but i wouldnt go as far as to call him my sister..or would i??? 44. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? >names. 45. Last phone call? > Jason. 46. Are you allergic to anything? >fleas. i am. 47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? >converse 48. What is one thing you've learned about life recently? >that you shouldnt overlook things because it will come up eventually. always does. 49. Are you jealous of anyone? >nah. 50. Is anyone jealous of you? >idk but they should be ha 51. Do You Own an iPod? >yep 52. Do any of your friends have children? >sal's having a baby! 54. What do you do at work? >i dont. 55. Do you hate anyone right now? >no. not really no. 56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? >no. 5 7. Who is your last kiss? >what? 58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? >22.. weird 59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? >yeah 60. How did you get one of your scars? > theres this area on my leg that is lighter than the rest because when i was 10 or something i was at my grandmas and a rock fell on me and took off a huge chunk and it just doesnt get any color now. that was a really big non sentence. sweet.