HEY EVERYONE! HOW WAS YOUR EGGS AND BUNNIES DAY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

(do not go on.. for it is long and worthless! but do comment on how ur easters went:D!)

Mine was interesting. Well it was good/bad. And all of the above. Well vannessa sprained her ankle and couldnt go to church. Poo cuz service was nice. I wanted her to go. But no worries. So I went early early with the mother. She is on worship team so she goes extra early and I sat in the car for an hour listening to some kinky cool music. o yeah. Well church was really good. Worship was awesome and Uturn was really fun. And altho I was thinkin of someone most of the time, I was happy. I was about to go across the way to big church and I saw Sal walking towards me... it was kinda weird and unexpected. heh and I was half expecting to see brett appear out of nowheres... stupid me. Havent seen Sal in a while. He lives closer so he's gonna be going now.. dont know if thats a good or bad thing. Well not bad, good for him. Well he didnt have anywhere to go for easter so I invited him to my house. Maybe that wasnt such a good idea... cuz being around Sal makes me miss Brett. Alot. And now I just miss Brett so much more. Sal called him while he was here... grr who does that? why would you call someone wheefheukgfdbjkgfk... nvm. I just got a lil jealous. a lot. a bit. a shoe? Well Brett thinks that the reason why I broke up with him isnt really the reason. ANd I just am saying that God told me but really its a conspiracy and I hate him.. yeah right. Why would I do that? I would never do that. I told him I loved him and I wouldnt say that unless it was true and I do still. And I wont stop. He is my first anything and my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first love.. I love him with all my heart and I would never lie to him. And it kinda hurts that he would still think that what I am saying isnt true, after all this nonsense. After everything he would still think that I made this up cuz really I dont want to be with him and I am usng this as an excuse. He says he knows me.. well he should know that Im not like that. If God never said anything to me, and I just didnt want to be with him for whatever reason, I would tell him. I wouldnt use an excuse, especially putting it all on God, I wouldnt do that.

But quite honestly, even if God hadnt have intervened in this and told me to break up with him, I think I would have anyways. That awful.. I didn't mean it like that but I wouold have given it a little time, thats all. I probably wouldnt have lasted very long at all, I probably would have been with him again by now. But he knows why.. its one of the major things. I need to grow in myself so I dont need him so much and my self-control when I am around him. It just got out of hand. and ya know, really I probably wouldnt have cuz I am stupid, but if I was a stronger person I would have. But ya know, I think after talking to him that last time. And he thought about that stuff and he said he didnt care about that stuff. I beieved him but maybe thats why it went so far in the first place. Im such an idiot. But God loves me.

I got bretts easter card. I like it. Its really cute. I miss him. I think I said that already. Yeah...

Well for easter we just had some people over. Hung out and watched how to lose a guy. Had communion and an easter egg hunt. I think this was the first year I hid the eggs and didnt find them... but I did get a basket o yeah. Never to old for an easter basket from el madre.

My fatherly type figure gave me a duck that quacks and a chocolate bunny. He came by around 8 with my little half brother. Apparently the kid wanted to see me. I remember when he was 4 and I saw him and I wanted to hug him and he didnt even want to look at me. He's 7 now. Looks nothing like me.

I conversed with one of bretts friends online on sals sn. Hes a nut. But I am nuttier. And was even called "the queen of randomness" yes way? cool.

Ya know it makes me feel weird talking to bretts friends... I try to think what if brett was talking to vannessa or jenae.. I'd be rather jealous. But I mean sal is gonna be going to church and I'll see him all the time. I dunno.

Ouch growing pains hurt..

I squeezed a rabbit.

Aw! Little cameron got his legs. I am so happy. When he was born, his legs didnt develope all the way. And last week he got his legs and his mom sent us pictures. He is the cutest little todler.

I decided to go on the mystery excursion with church. My brother will spend the day with the mother. My brother said when he comes home he will take me to the distillers concert in LA! WOOT! cant wait. Last time I got tony and andy to draw farm animals on my hands! And he said we could go paintballing with vannessa! yay. And he's gonna get sean and joe to hook me up with a bike! FINALLY! I neeeeeeeeed my bike. But I bet 1 out of 3 will actually happen.. I am selfish, I hope its my bike.

Im getting so obese, Im gonna go run today. After I wash dishes. and then a bit of hw. I have a sub for 6 weeks.. I think it will be the new guy steve, sure he is cool but he never knows what he's talking about.

this is really long. but I had nothing better to do obviously. But I shall go now. reeses pieces..