Not the tv show.
I feel like I've just consumed a big glass of "I don't care" juice. MMmm juice. Earlier today I still felt conflicted.. afflicted.. infected.. by stupid family drama crap stuff. And then poof I just feel lighter. No sir I did not take any drugs or alcoholic beverages. It just happened. It wasn't even a good day per say. It kinda sucked lots. Omg auto correct! !!! Uhg I had to retype sucked like a bazillion times.. Every time even now it wants me to write fucked, sacked, or ducked. Haha ducked. Anyways. There is always one of those days every time this happens with my family. It's a turning point from thinky and annoying and let's face it whiney... and everything is so sad and terrible and I'm so angry and blah blah blah and then I just realize.. I'm here again? And something clicks.. why am I upset over this? I should be happy. And then I just am. Not that I haven't thought that several times since feeling this way.. it doesn't help.just to think it. Idk what it is.. i dont care though.. whether it was a specific event or amount of time passed or something more deep and complex. I dont know how these things happen. I dooo not care. I'm just happy to feel a little more at peace.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... basically I am extremely tired but my back does not hurt too bad today which is just spectacular. it only hurts when I think about it.. which I will take over the "this is it there is nothing you can do it is going to hurt even if you try to distract yourself with a million things" pain anyday. And this headache only feels like a baby seal is crushing my brain instead of like a sperm whale or something. speaking of whales... a whales penis is so gross and so huge... and so gross.
I saw a friend of my moms in the parking lot of Target today. I am 82% sure she saw me but I pretended not to see her because really what can I say to these people? I'd rather let her think I am weird. Cuz I ammmm.
Rewatching the office from the beginning makes me happy.
Choli likes to play this game where she sits on my chest when I am sleeping and stare at me OR get her nasty wet nose as close to my face as possible without touching it until i wake up and then as soon as i open my eyes.... surprise.. wet nose in your face!
I stopped playing COD for like a month and I forgot who all these weirdos are.
Tim is here with chinese food bai
We ate food and watched an episode of madmen and then I couldn't keep my eyes open. It was only around 6.. i sleep until about 11pm. So now it's 2 ish and i am wide awake with a groggy headache grrr.
When i woke up I signed into fb and Christi had sent me a message. I guess she forgot who hosted her site. That was around 1pm. I don't sit around staring at Fb all day like some people so I didn't even know I wasn't logged in since yesterday until I woke up. I sent a message telling her her host and stuff so she should be able to figure it out.. Her site has been down for over a month even though she says she had it on auto pay.. i hope she figures it out. And then I hope she takes me up on updating the site.
Rudy Simone's posted a fb thingy about some lady person who needs an "aspergirl who can code in javacript" and left an email. I emailed her. Although I have no idea what it's for.. i was intrigued. Why would this person need to have aspergers? Does she actually have a job she needs done and prefers to work with someone with aspergers.. which you know would be cool but unlikely.. or maybe she is writing a book and looking for women with aspergers in different fields? Idk
I feel funny. I blame the egg rolls. I don't feel food poisony... but the egg rolls had a funny smell... like kinda chemically so I only ate half of one. I dont get heartburn a lot so idk but i think it might be that... maybe. Or there is a little mouse in my chest blowing bubbles. My fortune cookie said that I was a delight and people relate to me. Well that's very kind of you to say Mr cookie but your terribly mistaken and sentenced to death. Death by cannibalism.. because i am a cookie pie.
I told tim to call jaspar but he didnt. Idk why he doesn't invest in people who invest in him. I know it's hard... he has his social issues as well but at least I want to have friends... it's almost like he is anti friends. It's always jaspar calling him. I told him to change that or jaspar will start feeling like we did with sal and Stephanie and other past relationships. Plus it's not like I.can.. that's inappropriate I think. It's not my friend. I just benefit from the friendship overspray.