soooooo basically I am just sitting here.... Im freaking bored... Still dont know about that computer job thing. urg. its really starting to get to me... it would be such a great oppurtunity and it might not even happen. bleh. last week i went up to bass lake. micheal got a cabin and joe and sal were up there and i dunno. i went up with brett. to get away from everything. and it helped. when i got back i talked to timmy a little. but we mostly talked about other things. he said it didnt matter at the time but yesterday he was upset about it. and he should be. i would have been. im so stupid. i just get so freaked out sometimes. that im going to be stuck here. and Im going to live my mothers life.ew. i wish he could get into my head. i guess talking doesnt help anymore. im scared because he doesnt know what he wants. but maybe im the one who doesnt know what i want, maybe thats the problem. it didnt start out that way, but maybe thats what its turned into. jeni= nonsense. i dont really know what im talking about. anyways....I'll post pics later