Empty Despair

by psychocutter
Listening to: bottom of a bottle
Feeling: touchy
I feel really bad today. Trying to keep myself busy so I won't cut myself. I need anyone to talk to me. I don't even know why I feel this way. So empty. Like someone has tooken out everything that makes me feel alive. And now I'm emotionally dead. I feel useless. I can't even cry. Nothing seems to be working to make me happy. But happiness is just a temp. feeling. Not a time frame. You can't be a feeling 24-7. I have no faith. I believe in no god. I only cut away the feelings I can't feel. Or just don't want to feel. I think this thing you call life is just a nightmare I'm trapped in. I can't excape. I feel like I'm different. This is not really even me. I'm not myself.What is wrong with me? I ask. Why do I feel this way.
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I can't tell you what's wrong. All I can tell you, is that I'm always here. And look at it this way, like you said: Happiness is only a temperary feeling, isn't being empty feeling? And Feelings are only temperary too, right? So Hun, I can't give you answers, all I can do is listen. Surprise, Surprise, Miss Cry can hear! Whoever fought the day? Haha. Just say the word, and I'm yours!
[cry]
I just want u to know that I was worried bout u Hun. I even stayed up late 2 make sure u were koolZ n stuff. And let me say, stayin up til 12:10 when ya gotta wake up at 5:45. That's DEATH. But, its kool, juss as long as you kool! Drop a note sometime 2 tell me you're alive!
[cry]
i like your journal too i know how u feel i feel exactly the same way about being empty not even to cry any more the drops of blood are my tears now i try not to give up though hopeing things will get better even thogh they never do...
<3 amanda
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