Dreams tell of the future....

by psychocutter
I just got a letter from Jeff, he was addicted to pain killers his drug dealer told police that Jeff tried to rob him and while Jeff was in jail my step-mom died. I had dreams of guns and I guess something was trying to tell me maybe someone would die. And I thought at first that maybe Jeff had killed himself. Last time I talked to him he did that I can’t live this life anymore. He was calling out to me and I fussed at him. I don’t really want to get attach to him b/c I’m scared I might lose him again. But I cried so much. My day has been bad anyway. I cried in first block about my dream last night. Just think about this I know not to bother anyone. I’ll stay to myself and share nothing. My silence is perfection. If I don’t talk about my feelings I will be fine. What should I do talk to him or just forget him? I feel so broken anyway. And all of this makes me feel worse. I just need someone to tell me everything will be okay. I’m so scared of this life.-- My world is breaking apart piece by piece.
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I loved how you said that your silence is perfection. I couldn't have said it better myself. It's so nice to have someone I can relate to. I gave you the code to put your entries on the right, I am not sure if you got it though, it in your last enrties, comment thingy.
I know how that is gurl. Some of my dreams come true too. Sorry I haven't written you and mailed the letter yet. I'm sick today so I'm sorry. I WILL send you the letter ASAP. I promise. Love ya.

Shanny
I don't talk to you, caus eI chose to honor your wishes of not talking to you any longer, and leaving you be. Don't you remember Ashley? And no, I won't turn back on my word....not for you anyway.

And yes, I did say you could talk to me, evern after we were done. But you fucked that up when you told me to basically fuck off....SO...don't blame me.
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Also, who truely needs to grow? The one who honors the other's wishes, and lets them carry on their life while they do the same....or the one who can't seem to make up her mind? The one who wants something differant every few months, and finds joy in downing those around her? Ashley...you're too intelligent and unique to be constantly depressed and pissed. Let it go girl...move on in life. Don't try to hold onto whatever's left with us
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Ya, I have yahoo messenger my name is, vadu_jish ...... I'll be on until 11:00 monday thru Friday =D

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cause it's done. I'm a differant person, yet again. Your hurting me made me look deeper inward and find a few things I feared lost. Do the same. Stop casting jealous eyes at the world. Stop seeking an impossible perfection. Merely, seek to be LIKE that. Better yourself constantly, but don't expect perfection. It's one of only a few impossibilities.

Remember what I've told you all along. The strong survive. The weak fade.
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Sorry about everything thats happened to you